IT #2

mmmm....Pizza...
aaahhh.....Wendy Pefercorn.....
As I venture farther down the time street. I feel closer and closer to understanding the cosmos of things. And what I've come to understand about the cosmos, is that I have absolutely no idea what it is. Maybe in realizing that I understand it that much more. Let's hope.

I quite enjoy learning, but at times I just think, "why am I even bothering to learn this?" The truth of it all though, I think, is that the more you learn, the more you learn how much you don't know. Which of course is a "good" thing. It means more opportunities to learn, in my opinion.
They say that if your not interested in what you're doing, then don't do it. I definitely have done a large scope of things and have found that I don't like it. Or rather, I love it at first, but I lose all my interest in it in a matter of... maybe a day or two. The only problem with that train of thought is, what if you don't find anything that you're not interested in? Is there some obscure hobby, or activity that I'm not finding that I will just fall in love with and never stray from it? I wouldn't mind if it was that, except that I wish it would present itself soon. But I don't think that is what it is, and it probably really means that I'm being too picky and too lazy to keep up with anything. I think throughout my childhood about what I loved to do that was really worth while, and... I couldn't think of anything, except for playing the computer (I really liked to do that). I always envy those guys that know what they're going to do, or some of them don't even know what they're going to do, but they know that whatever they do, they'll dominate the game. I think I will have to follow the example of that type of person. I don't like the idea of just sitting around waiting for the perfect thing to roll around. I am confident in the ability to pick up any skill and trade. But I worry sometimes about not liking my job. I don't feel too strongly to pick the profession that is just right for me. All I care about doing is making enough money and handling it great, and then not have to worry about it. I might even make that my primary goal in my professional life. The only problem that remains is what I want to do to start providing that first ten or fifteen years of primary income.

mmmm.....ice cream.....